It is around 7 a.m. in the morning. The water is calm. It is like crystal water where I can observe the depth in me and the unfolding scenarios of life. One wisdom that stays in my heart is the belief that this is a time to embrace renewed opportunity, fresh perspective, and an overall sense of rejuvenation. As my silent mind embraces the heart… clear… crystal reflective, the serene water in front of me reveals the true colors of “stones and any others” in depth.
Calm Mountain Lake… A little frog jumps in… Plop!
Many of us seem stuck in the water of our healing process because we have become complacent and comfortable, too dependent upon things running automatically because of the belief system that leads us to do that as if we don’t have any such power to open a new chapter of life. However, when we look more closely at complacency (i.e., self-satisfaction, especially when accompanied by unawareness of actual dangers or deficiencies), we often see a subtle emotional paralysis.
We allow ourselves to become caught up in our work or causes and claim to be too busy or too difficult—too impossible to get into the waters of self; at the bottom of everything is often a fear of change. To move inwardly, we must face interior conflict that we may not even be aware of initially. It means entering a paradox and letting go of the tight controls we have prescribed over our destiny, facing the denial many of us have built into our system about who we are. Some people will have a hard time getting their feet wet. Change can be agitating because it beckons us, the travelers, into new territory.
As adults, we rarely allow ourselves to notice and then enjoy simple life events, such as fully sensing the reflective water or watching a little frog jump into the calm lake in the morning. We tend to question… tend to have to know why it jumped, how it got there, what else happened, and what it all means before we feel comfortable letting the frog jump into the water. Often we lose a precious moment. We often insist on deciphering all the problematic levels of our lives before we allow ourselves to enter a healing process.
We are probably wrong if we unconsciously think that reflective water of mind seems unnecessary! We often insist on building a great kingdom on earth to be the greatest and become too busy to experience a simple precious moment to connect to ourselves and others. Thomas Merton once said that many of us waste precious time exploring the complexity of who we are and who we have been before we allow ourselves to be healed. “There are no levels,” he said. “You can break any moment through into the underlying unity of God!” Mother Teresa said, “We do no great things; we do only small things, with great love!”
Rony Kusnadi, Ph.D.